I ain't a workaholic.

Assalaamualaikum and good morning/good afternoon/good noon/good day/good night/good evening/congratulation/get well soon. (sila pilih yang berkaitan sahaja. kesian, terima kaseh)

It is miraculous when I have idea for my blog. yes, memang miraculous & majestic sekali. Bangun dari tidur je it was like a light bulb came out of my forehead and bling brightly macam terlebih voltage and made an incredibly loud ting!! sound out of it. Serious boleh menerangi seluruh kawasan ‘pantai ribut’ kat penang sana so that there won’t be a hot spot anymore. you know what I meant by hot spot, didn’t you? Alahai. Tempat couple2 bersuka ria di waktu malam yang indah duduk berdua di tepi pantai. Yeah, macam tu lah my idea came this morning. Right after I dreamt of a prince yang tersangatlah handsome melotop BOKEBABOM datang meminang I kat rumah where I duduk tersipu malu setelah menghidang air sirap limau ais kepada rombongan meminang tersebut. Fuyohh! :D

Actually takde la right after I woke up hehehe :D I was at home doing nothing. You know what happen when I’ve nothing to do right? I tak suka bagi kepala wotak I ni kosong tanpa bekerja. I tend to drool when I got nothing to think you know. It is bad. It is not good for a girl to drool. Laki takpe heeeeee. Bukan badan je kena kerja, kepala hotak pun kena kerja jugak tau. Kalau tak, berkarat. This is one of the reason I hate semester break, lagi2 yang sampai berbulan2 -_-‘

ok stop with the menyimpang yang dah jauh gila dah ni. Ideanya ialah I would like to list my past part time job. Ermm, not listing actually. More to huraian hehehe. I start kerja dari umur sekolah rendah kot. Yeap, dari sekolah rendah even though time tu bukan part time kerja sebulan kena kerah tenaga macam cite Cinderella tuh. Kang I kena masuk jabatan kebajikan plak kang -_-‘

1.    Bartender bawah lamp post

Ni bukan an actual part time job pun. Time sekolah rendah punye keje. Macam darjah 5 kot, tah2 tak ingat lah. Dapat gaji harian. Sehari around spohengget (RM10) or more macam tu. And the boss is my uncle. Die bukak gerai air (kira I kerja bartender la tu kan :D) & a little bit food kat pasar siang. Kerja bukan sebulan pon. Time I balek kampong je hehehe. Pak cik I cakap Ira nak tolong pak cu meniaga tak? Nanti pak cu bagi gaji. I said with my widest smile in the world (sebab dapat duit) nak2! (my family call me with this name – family ONLY). Yang mencabarnye kerja ni is I kena layan orang bila segerombolan manusia datang serbu gerai. Siot gelabah macam nak berderai semua barang atas meja gulp3. Dapat belajar manner sebagai perempuan jugak sebab kat situ ramai mak cikss yang boleh tegur I bila I buat perangai tak senonoh heeeee ;D

2.    Pekerja kilang plastik berwawasan

Haaa. Ni I tau ramai tak sangka. Ni time umur I 16 tengah tunggu result PMR. I kerja dengan adik i. adik I umur 15 TAHUN. And yeah bawah umur hehehe. Ni start bila kawan I bagi idea buat part time job. Bila dapat kerja kawan I tak nak, so I heret adik i.mama & abah risau but tau2 jela bila ada anak degil hehehe. I pergi kerja abah hantar pagi2 & balik naik bas metro. Murah gila gaji dia sebabnya I tak pernah kerja part time. Sejam RM2 je. Ade 3 sweet things about kerja ni dulu. First, kitorang dipandang rendah. Yela kan budak sekolah kerja kilang gaji murah. Siot miskin (memang miskin pun ngeee) takde kepala hotak ke hape la kan. Macam pandangan ni mesti kes budak sekolah malas belajar ni. Tapi kitorang buat bodo je. Yea, benda paling terror kitorang boleh buat, buat bodo :D tapi sekali result PMR kuar, hambek kau result aku.i tak nak kecoh time tu tapi adik I yang duk bagitau.  I bukan nak riak tapi memang nak buktikan kitorang memang nak riak time tuh. I time tu tak la buat muka bangga ke hape, takut kena cepuk je heeee. Tapi layanan diorang dapat nampak la ok sket kan :) second sweetness is, I dengan adik I determine dengan semangat waja KITORANG NAK BELAJAR BETUL2 SEBAB TAK NAK KERJA KILANG BILA DAH TUA NANTI. Sweet tak? Hehehe. Ok tak pun. Kat kilang macam tu kan sikit je orang muda yang kerja. Kat management &technical banyak la. kesian bila dah tua2 kena kerja walaupun mak ciksss look cute in factory’s uniform. Third, I bought my first phone with my own moneyhh! Siap belanja family makan lagi :D and the phone is still here by my side. The best handphone eva! :D

3.    Promoter minah jenin

Tempat I selalu pergi jadi promoter is jusco belakang rumah tu aka Jusco Equine Park. Time cuti semester & lepas SPM. I pernah jadi promoter baju lelaki D’urban (for 2 weeks kot – ganti staff chinese nak CNY) & also kedai handbag perempuan (fair for 2 weeks jugak). Mase kat D’urban I belajar camne nak jahit hujung seluar slack laki ikut ukuran panjang kaki (ok the tailor ever), I belajar laki will look best when they wear which type of slack, I belajar camne orang jepun start kerja diorang (because Jusco belongs to Japs) etc. Mase jaga fair handbag pulak I dok berangan I want that bag I’m sure it’ll look nice on me ataupun dah dapat gaji nanti nak bag yang warne biru tu lah. But in the end I don’t know where the hell was my money had gone to hehehe. Me myself have no idea ;p

4.    Kitchen helper yang asyik drool tengok makanan

I jadi kitchen helper kat Shakey’s Pizza. They’re not as commercialize as Pizza Hut I bet. Sebabnye I pun tak kenal Shakey’s Pizza before I keje kat situ eheh. Tapi I dah tak nak keje as kitchen helper lagi dah. Ampun tak nak. Penat woh! Patut lah chef banyak laki. Tapi kalau dapat staff laki yang keje nak laju je, ade je yang sanggup watkan keje cleaning hehe. Oi syaza yang ni, ni & ni bia aku buat, set? Hahaha :D Yang bez keje kat Shakey’s is ade staff meal. Maknenye makan freeeee :D tapi ade limit la kan. Whatever it is it’s freeee-huhuhuu! Ok behave syaza.

5.    Waitress yang asyik drool jugak (yeah, imma drool princess babyhh!)

Jadi waitress plak kat Pizza San Fransisco. Yeap, I keje kat United State sane. Aceehh! Acah je :p Keje dekat Mines Shopping Fair je pun. Yang ni a little bit jauh dari rumah. Bila balik malam abah amek. Bez jugak sebab time I keje I dapat manager baik & fatherly. Staff meal die unlimited so kadang2 die belanja staff2 die makan. Ha anak2 makanlah ape yang saya dah order ni die cakap. Kitorang dengan sengih yang teramatlah lebar memakan meal tersebut hehehe :D katanye nak suruh staff rase sendiri ape yang kite serve to the customers. Baik kan? :) lagi satu die suke nasihat kitorang suruh belaja betul2. Belajar setinggi boleh. Die suke tengok budak2 belajar. Siot memang macam bapak la even though tak kawen lagi. Experience lain adelah I dapat sharpen my communication skills, confidence & understanding different English slang. Nak faham ape yang omputih, Arabic etc cakap in English is very challenging you know. Sekali dengar minah arab cakap omputih macam france de amor, sekali sebenarnye cakap omputih daaa. Hehehe.

6.    Tuition teacher bidan terjun

Haha! Yang ni I rase kelakar sikit hehehe. Jiran I suruh I tuition-kan anak die. I yang “penyayang” ni disuruh bagi tuition. Baguih! I pun dah tak ingat ape yang I ajar. Math, science & English kot (hancuss budak tu punye English hehehe). Gaji tak la besar mane tapi boleh la train I sikit2 nak bersabar dengan budak2 kecik. Budak sekolah rendah memang menguji kesabaran -_-‘ yang paling tak tahan bila kene puji Kak Ira ni cantik lah. And my heart will say memang pandai bodek -___-

7.    Baby sitter kadang2

Baby sitting takde la part time sangat. Little time je. Tolong mama jaga budak2. Hahaa! Ok la tu kan. Bez pe. I suke jaga budak yang cakap jerman. Hadoi bidi2! Hoho!

8.    Lab assistant (skim khidmat pelajar)

Ni part time I sekarang (the 4-month semester break). Banyak baiknye. Tapi untuk orang yang part time semate2 tapi pergi jauh2 memang mencabar minda & jiwa. Tapi takpe, kita kerja sambil bercuti hik3 :) other than that I dapat belajar macam2 & dapat benefit jugak. Getting closer with lecturer (silap2 dapat supervisor untuk FYP insyaAllah), getting closer with staffs, dapat buat keje kuli, dapat belajar camne nak setup lab etc2. Contoh2 keje kuli adelah buat wire loop, cuci test tube & Pasteur pipette, susun kerusi, inventori barang2, buat lab rules, jadi model untuk PPE wearing, buat surat this & that etc2. Lepas keje je pergi merayap kat penang. 3 months in penang woh! What else to do. Makan-makan-makan lah! :D dapat jugak travel time cuti hew hew hew :)


yeah, tu je kot for now. kalau ade lagi i try update. watevah syaza, update la sangat. :D tapi sume gaji tu i tak tau pegi mane. kene sedut alien kot. hurmm.

my very first Wordless Wednesday.

Assalaamualaikum and good morning/good day/good afternoon/good noon/good evening/good night/get well soon/congatulation etc (sila bulat pada yang berkaitan SAHAJA)

i do not know how/where/when/why this Wordless Wednesday came from. i saw Judin posted in every week. and i was damn, awat wordless wednesday menyusahkan hidup aku - i got nothing to say. siot gelabah tak? haha! kalau tak nak tulis kau senyap jela syaza hoi! ;| now i've someting to write under Wordless Wednesday. at last (gila bongek) yeeheehehe. what an achievement syaza. *hidung kembang2, pipi macam nak melotop* ok stop it syaza.

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ok2 - back to what i'm suppose to do (iaitu Wordless Wednesday).

it not really happen on wednesday. so, it's not really wordless wednesday. but as usual, gasak kau la, hari ni kan rabeww. ok fine. 

it happened yesterday. guess what day did it happened & i'll give you a kiss -_-' siot berani dare macam tuh. *sambil melepaskan beribu-ribu-riban flying kisses ke angkasaraya untuk peneka tak bertuah - hambek kau lol* dush3! stop merapu syaza.

actually, i nak balik Penang. yela dah ambek cuti tak rasmi for few days. nak kembali mencari rezeki di tempat orang hew hew hew :( my friends and i decided to take a train. so, pung-pang-pung-pang my friend bought train ticket yesterday (second guess & second flying kiss will be gifted tehehe - bajet orang hadap flying kiss kau hoho!) 9.20pm. second class ticket. so, i pun plan la nak pergi kl central after maghrib. konon-konon nak solat dulu la kan. tapi konon-konon i tu tersangat la stupid sebabnya i bajet everything will be well dalam masa i on the way pergi kl central tu. see-see! this is one of my attitude. take things lightly. 


i tunggu maghrib dengan tersangat lah sabarnya. mama bila nak maghrib ni? mama said jap lagi lah tu. then i replied ok2 *tunggu patiently* 


i solat maghrib.


i bersiap.


abah i nak hantar i pergi KTM serdang. i pun tunggu la dia habis tengok annissa. annissa (wonder if i spell it right - i malas nak google for the actual spelling behehehe) is a Tv3 drama. i tak pernah tengok cite ni. tapi yang i tau mama, abah & even adek yang baru balek keje pon exaggerate like hell hoi! annissa! annissa! annissa nak abes dah! -_-' siot jerit macam kat medan perang. terkejut beruk akak. so, abah tunggu the drama abes baru anta i. 

ni lah drama annissa. i eja nama drama ni betol! excited akak. tak tau lah ape yang diorang berkenan sangat dengan drama nih *bukak tonton.com.my*

drama abes.


naik kereta. abah tanya when's your train again? i replied half past 9 pm. abah said ok. then, vroom-vroomm! abah stopped to fill the tank up. then, vroom again.


sampai KTM serdang. 


then, i beli tren tix to kl central. i tunggu lagi. it's 8.30 pm. my heart said it's ok. still got time. i'll give the train till 8.45 pm then i'll choke. wait patiently. time seemed move faster than ever. my heart said siot cepat jam nih! hoi! slow la sikit! time ni i dah tak kisah jadi tua dengan wish the time to go slow. dah pukul 8.45 pm. i gulped a lot. i waited for the light. light of the train (ok macam puitis plak). my heart pounded hoi! dah pukul 8.50 pm nih! di manakah dikau wahai tren yang kucintai? di mana!!? takpe2. i bagi till 9 pm. kalau tak you (KTM) and i putus couple! huh! seyes i said that way. i mean dalam hati la kan. kang kuarkan kat mulut plak kang, people will say i'm crazyhh! ade plak couple dengan keretapi. tak thrill langsung. bila kita merajuk tren tu bukan nak pujuk pun. thrust me. ok2, back to the story-mory. 8.58 pm tren ter'chenta' pun sampai. fuh! selamatlah dikau dari break up wahai tren. *hati sengih sikit* tapi still risau. yela. as my closed friends now that i am not well oriented. seriously. i bukan tau sangat kl central walaupun dah berjuta2 lemon pergi. hati i said takpe2 sempat2. 


dalam tren plak kan, i sabar lagi. yela, i bukan naik bullet train ke hape. i nyanyi2 dalam hati. i buat mesh up, rap, imagine how would a song sound when play acoustically. kaki i plak dah shuffle dah (that's what iskandar said when i text him that kaki i dah joget2). serdang. then, bandar tasik selatan. then, salak selatan. then, seputih. my heart said tak payah berenti kat seputih pun takpe bukan ada orang nak berenti pun. ok, everybody can cepuk me. how ignorant kan i ni? of course ada orang nak berenti kat seputih. dush3! ok then, mid valley. ok, then one last stop - KL CENTRAL bebehh! then, tren tu berenti sekejap in the middle between mid valley & kl central. hati i said what?!! move train, move! awat hang berenti nih!!  time ni dah pukul 9.15 pm i guess. sampai pukul 9.18 pm tren tu dok tercongok kat tengah tuh! haih! ok fine i dah tak sempat. i called my friend to tell how cuak i am. but she told me to chill, kat lua tren orang jalan2 lagi ni. ok. chill skit. i sampai kat kl central 9.19 pm. i lari2 naik atas. sampai ada dua orang budak laki (macam highschooler) dok ejek2 i lari, lari HAHAHA *sambil ajuk2 i lari*. i cakap dengan slow shut up.... *sambil lari2*

sampai atas i cari platform i. siot i kat mana nih? ok i confuse dalam kl central. i don't know where the hell am i. i tanya KTM staff mana platform 1 eh? *dengan cuak & tercungap-cungap plak tuh tak cool langsung* staff tu jawab relax dik platform tu kat tingkat 2 sebelah kfc *sambil tunjuk arah lorong sebelah McD*. i pun angguk2 macam Woody the woodpecker. i pergi la arah dia tunjuk - McD. situ ada escalator kot i said. ok, not even staircase. hoi syaza! kat sebelah sana mana ada escalator! i patah balek. i tercari-cari escalator yang i selalu nampak tu. TAKDE! perhh! cuak sampai tak nampak escalator. dasyat sungguh!! syaza, syaza -_-'


my friend called. die bagi direction. die kata cepat2 tren da gerak! sempat lagi kejar. i dengan cuak cakap i tak tau mana kfc nih! tak sempat dah ni! *sambil lari2* kawan i cakap tak2! sempat2! lari2! i nampak escalator. i naek. eh, mak cikss ni cepat lah. i nak naek tingkat 2 nih! i bajet i sorang je nak naek tingkat 2. then, sampai tingkat 2. mana KFC?!!!! oh there u are. i pun lari sampai nak gila. time ni belum hang up phone call. kawan i cakap ouh syaza tren dah jalan laju2 dah. i was like takpe lah bye2 korang. i was pissed. 


marah gila. dengan kemarahan yang ada i called is. die jawab macam mamai2 giteww yess, dah naik tren? i double pissed. i dalam kesusahan & kesedihan die tido. cisss. i jawab i terlepas tren. then, hang up. i pun tak tau nak marah kat sapa. sume orang i marah. marah dalam hati cukup kan. 


abah, apesal abah tunggu annissa & isi minyak tadi?!


tren kat KTM serdang, nape kau lambat & jalan terkedek-kedek & berenti sebentar bersama kit kat?


tren pegi sungai petani, nape kau punctual sangat?! selalu tren siot lambat.


my friend, apesal korang naek tren tu dulu?!


is, nape tido?!


me myself, nape kau solat dulu? kan boleh jamak bila sampai. nape kau bajet takkan ada masalah kat tengah2 jalan nanti? haish! nape kau bagitau abah tren pukul 9.30 pm? it's 9.20 pm lah! 10 minit banyak beza kau tahu. 


haa! ni lah manusia especially me tehehehe. salah orang nampak dulu. salah sendiri simpan last2. then, dah terbukti salah sendiri. yeah, sudah terang lagi bersuluh di mana orang yang selain diri sendiri mahupun tren tiadalah salahnya di dalam keadaan ini. rasa nak cepuk je kau ni syaza. dush3! ouch3! 


i pun beli tren tix balek serdang. is dah offer diri for few times nak amek i but i said no sebabnya i mara dengan diri sendiri. i am so sorry to lepaskan kat you ok sayang. nanti kite dating lagi sementara i still kat sini ok? lalalalalala~ then, i informed my daddyhh to pick me at serdang. today, hari rabu, i dengan tersengih2. i memang kelakar lah. macam harremm la kau syaza. cam siot je. HAHAHA! longkang sungguh hati syaza. hikss.

p/s: to my fwensss, balakss, abah & tren, this is not uollzzz fault at all. so, don't be like salahkan diri tu. and sorry to blame uollzz at the first place upon what had happened. Ampun maaf diminta. Mensuci hening dosa. Seruan kita. Untuk semua. Selamat... selamat...Selamat hari raya. 

kesian terima kasih.

Saya cemburu bukannya dengki.

Assalaamualaikum.

D'you know a song by Fort Minor called Remember the Name? I love the song.

 

You ready?! Let's go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all (c'mon!)

[Chorus:]
This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

Mike! - He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em, he knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's all about reality and making some noise
Making the story - making sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's picking it up! Let's go!

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leaving them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a living from writing raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never asking for someone's help, or to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

This is twenty percent skill
Eighty percent beer
Be a hundred percent clear cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreck it with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"
Came back dropped Megadef, took em to church
I like bleach man, why you had the stupidest verse?
This dude is the truth, now everybody's giving him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he's fuckin' with S. Dot!

[Chorus]

They call him Ryu, he's sick
And he's spitting fire
And mike got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
What a fuckin' nihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with, and rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the making, patiently waiting to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's taking over the globe
He's got a partner in crime, his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak! - He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Making his way to the top
He often gets a comment on his name
People keep asking him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's living proof, got him rocking the booth
He'll get you buzzing quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they do and give a hundred percent

Forget Mike - Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with,
The kids that he signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying,
How did he do it?!

[Chorus - repeat 2x]

[Outro - Mike Shinoda:]
Yeah! Fort Minor
M. Shinoda - Styles of Beyond
Ryu! Takbir! Machine Shop!
 

Credit: azlyrics.com

 

Not my most but I just agree with the song my most especially chorus part. 

 

"This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!"

 

Mike Shinoda knows how to rhyme his feeling, isn't he? *dengki*.

 

This is 10% luck where I think I have less than that. You know why? 1. Sebab I think I'm greedy. 2. Sebab ada yang tak perlu usaha banyak tapi dapat banyak. 3. Sebab aku memang pemalas. -_-"

 

Obviously, aku cemburu dengan cheaters that get well paid. You know, yang ada luck more than 10%. Haha! I speak in annoy, people. Dan cemburu. Dan redha. Dan sarcasm. Bukan dengki. Bukan terputus tali. Bukan saja-saja jadi sarcastic. 

Lepas tu, aku teringat yang Yang Satu hanya bagi yang kita perlukan dan bukan yang kita mahukan. Cemburu aku kurang sikit dan I get motivated. I just need my cemburu more than I need my eyeliner. So that I'll get motivated. Cemburu bagi aku macam minyak petrol untuk kereta yang takde minyak *cam bagus plak aku buat comparison*. Kereta perlukan petrol untuk jadi vromm vroommm vroommmm! So do I. I need cemburu to fire up my will (macam one of Ben10 punye alien - Heatblast). Tehehe. :p 

So Syaza, HAPPY CEMBURU! :D

Yeah!! I AM HERE!!!! :D

Assalaamualaikum.

Dear Mama/Abah/Adik-adikku/Kawan/Blogwalker (you-know-who - tehehehe :p), 


I am well in Bertam, uhuh! Bertam yep! All the way to Penang, Malaysia, South-East Asia, Asia, South Hemisphere, Earth, Milky Way, Universe (alien2 sekalian boleh datang ke tempat yang saya tulis ni - lawatlah Malaysia yeh!!)

Do you want to know how do I end up being in Bertam? ~Kalau Zafirah & Iffah ada ni mesti cakap camni "Kitorang nak tau sangat ni. Pe die? Cite la cepat" *nada: memperli tahap gaban, muka: buat2 excited* -_-" Kuang jaq naaa. Takpe2. OK, abaikan mereka. 

Since undergraduate students 'terpaksa' having holiday for 4 months (alaaaaa, the holiday is kinda of short, don't you think? Awat tak bagi cuti 4 tahun je) which I know most of us is going to experience brain death (nak menulis pun ketaq tangan - I know how does it feel -_-'),

Since I have no job and I tak nak part time yang selalu I buat (tibe2 tukar jadi I - haha!),

Since I want to travel as well. I never been to Penang (harap nama je orang Mesia aka Malaysia kan? -_-'),

Since I never been apart for more than 300km *i guess* from my family for more than 1 week (Yeah you can say it. Just say it. Heez.),

Since I need money. Money is everything. Chopp! We need money for everything. Ka-ching! Ka-ching!! I'm deadly like crawl to death want a car license so that I can help my Mama pergi pasar beli sayur-mayur *acececeeh!*. In order to prevent me from crawling to death disebabkan nak sangat lesen kereta, I need money to buy get a license,

Credit: Google.

Since I want to buy iPad *berangan 1*, new MP3 player, new look *more to like tukar wardrobe and berangan 2*,  kereta *berangan 3* and, and tak tau nak pe lagi dah. Chopp! Bukan tak tau, tak ingat je, banyak sangat. Tehehe :p Well, kita hidup kena ada angan2 even though gaji takde la beribu-ribu riban.

Nak sume baju macam ni - overall dress. It's just sumenye labuh dan tutup dada & lengan. Sopan sket noh. InsyaAllah. P/S: baju saja ye. Other than that, tiadalah kena mengena. Credit: Google.

Atas sebab2 di atas, saya di Bertam. Berat juga nak pergi at the first place. Sampai nangis2 dalam bas time nak pergi Penang *mengantoikan diri - stupidos*. Tapi pujuk juga hati ni that I'm going to be fine there because I always like that. Gelabah tak tentu pasal, hear rumours sana sini, imagine stupid things, you know. Siap cakap "alaaaa, kalau tempat ni like hell, kau naik prebet pergi Butterworth, pergi kat kaunter tiket bas ke Jalan Duta dan nyah kau dari sini. Kan senang tuh." 


Then bila dah sampai kat tempat digelabahkan tu & dah golek2 atas katil bertilam empuk lagi berbantal gebu & dapat tengok perangai sebenar staf MLT *ampun Kak Mas & Abg Din & En Wan Shahriman- heeee ;p* & pergi merata-rata kat Penang (island included) & makan char kuey tiao sampai muka jadi macam char kuey tiao jugak & makan kat kedai makan yang banyak sangat lauk sampai perut automatik kenyang sebelum makan & lepak dengan Didi dan Qais & going to Kedah back and forth *eheh dua kali je baru :p* & naik feri & pergi pantai dua kali *Pantai Merdeka and pantai batu yang dekat dengan Pulau Jerjak :D*. Ini GREAT!! 


Apart from that boleh belajar macam mana nak manage lab yang 'terchenta' from zero *takde la zero sangat tehehe - benda besar gedabak tuh da kena angkut masuk la kan tapi benda2 kecik ceto'et tu yang kena buat* to a shining shing2 punye lab & then lepas ni kena manage students dalam lab pulak. Majestic yaw! :DD


So, Syaza selama ni kau dok kerut2 dahi fikir yang nggak2 is useless ye. And I hope Mama too. Jangan pikir yang nggak2 ya Mama. I am fine sihat aka gomok walafiat here Mama!

P/S: Berangan 1 is like long way to go. Manakan cukup gaji SKP @ Skim Khidmat Pelajar nak beli benda tuh - merepek. Berangan 2 is like slowly way to go. Takkan tibe2 nak tuka sume baju camtu kan. Unless kau tu long-lost kakak Harry Potter atau kau memang kaya tahap gaban @ super-kaya. Berangan 3 tu I think I was mabuk la at that time. Yep, mabuk - confirm! :)

Pensyarah paling kejam yang pernah jumpa kot. Haih!

“Pergh-pergh-pergh! Gilalah dia ni. Ade ke patut nak suruh kitorang wat benda ni. Dah la tak pernah tahu binatang jadah ni. Nak presentation yang canggih-canggih pulak tu. Aaaaaarrrgghh! Stres-stres! “ *muka macam singa kena gigit nyamuk

This is the ‘magic’ sentence that I used to say – actually linger in my brain – bila lecturer saya bagi assignment nak gempak je. Yes. Diorang memang kejam. Sangat kejam. Mean. Cold-hearted. Apa-apa saja lah yang patut bagi nama kat diorang ni. Huh!

Nak tahu tak apa  benda yang depa dok suruh kitorang buat masa kitorang diploma dulu? Kawan-kawan sekalas masa diploma dulu nak ingat balik tak? Alaaa. Encik A, Encik B dan Encik C dulu tu. Teruna tiga serangkai.

*Dalam post ni pun saya tak nak pakai ‘saya’ tapi nak pakai ‘aku’. Baru ada feel  sikit kan. Ehem-ehem :p

1) Ada ke  patut, Encik A suruh kitorang buat slide presentation wajib ada hyperlink. Dah la kitorang tak reti time tuh. Jenuh kitorang belajar buat hyperlink kat powerpoint tu. Sampai nanges-nanges *ada ke? -_-“ Lepas tu, dah siap dah ni, dah confident nak present dah ni, hyperlink tak keluar pulak. Hancussss. Balik kolej hentam cekedis banyak-banyak sebab hyperlink tak nak keluar masa presentation tadi. “Ceh! Penat aku buat hyperlink malam tadi sampai tak tidur.”

2) Ada ke patut, kitorang tengah present ni Encik B halau kitorang dari presentation. Lah. Kitorang dah try nak faham dah benda yang kitorang nak present tu tapi dah kitorang ni agak benak juga la, dah 165, 353 kali baca pun tak faham-faham juga. What to do kan? Pergh! Sedap siot kena halau. -_-“

3) Ada ke patut, Encik C marah kitorang sebab kitorang terlupa nak garis nama spesis bacteria. Alaaaa. Lek lu *bak kata Cikguku Didi. Kitorang terlupa saja. Kitorang baru nak belajar microbiology. Jangan lah tonyoh whiteboard tu macam tu. Memang la sweet Encik C marah kitorang tapi agak terkilan lah juga sebab Encik C selalunya baik je. Hmmm. @_@

4) Ada ke patut, Encik A marah kitorang. Sampai nanges si Kiki tu. Kitorang dah jawab betul dah soalan Encik A tu tapi Encik A tak dengar. Bukan kitorang tak pandai nak jawab. Jangan lah sergah-sergah. Terkezzzut tahu?

5) Ada ke patut, kitorang yang baru diploma ni Encik A suruh buat written assignment style budak degree buat thesis. Tulis dengan reference style APA system lah, nak numbering macam dalam thesis lah. Aku pulak dalam hati: apa jadah lah pulak APA system tuh? -_-‘ Alaaaaa. Lek lu. Kitorang baru 17 tahun setengah. Bengong-bengong lagi dah suruh buat referencing style APA system. Siap nak intext citation tu yang tak tahan tu. Pergh! Pening-pening kitorang nak salin web address, nama penulis semua. Reference bukan satu, dua tapi banyak kot. Macam buat research. Haih! Apasal lah kena buat. Masabalahnya sekarang ni kan, ada saja budak degree tak tahu buat referencing guna APA system. Haih lagi!

6) Ada ke patut, Encik A *lagi-lagi dia ni -_-“* suruh kitorang skip slide masa tengah present. “yang ni tak penting – SKIPP! (dengan , muka bangganya)”. Gila ah. Lah mana kitorang tahu benda tu semua tak penting. Dah kitorang tak pernah masuk lab hospital. Kitorang jumpa benda tu dekat web, kitorang paste jela kat slide tuh. Alaaaah! Leceh lah dia ni! Grrrr. Bukan setakat suruh skip je, ada yang kena suruh stop presentation sebab dah lebih masa. Alaaaa. Kitorang cakap omputih pun tergagap-gagap. Tu pasal la lambat sikit. Lambat sikit je kot. 1 jam je. Tu pun tak boleh tunggu ke? Sabar tu kan separuh daripada iman. -_-“

7) Ada ke patut, Encik B tak nak pandang muka kitorang. Pastu bila kitorang nak tanya soalan pasal bab hari tu, Encik B buat-buat tak nampak. Encik B marah kitorang sebab lambat masuk kelas. Oloh. Bukan sengaja pun. Hari tu kolej blok kitorang tak ada air. Dah la tak ada air, lif blok rosak pulak tuh. Kitorang tinggal tingkat 24. Kitorang menapak turun tangga nak kejar kelas Encik B. Kesian kan? Tahu lah marah, tapi jangan lah tak pandang muka kitorang. Sedih tahu :( Gulp.

8) Ada ke patut, Encik A *dia lagi, banyak noh masabalah dia bagi* ketuk tangan kitorang dengan pen. Sebabnya kitorang tak potong kuku before masuk lab. Alaaaa. Kitorang bukan tak nak potong kuku tapi terlupa je. Jangan lah sampai ketuk-ketuk tangan. Sakit tahu? *sakit sangat ke?dok eh* Lagipun kitorang bukan budak kecil nak ketuk-ketuk. Haih!

9) Ni yang last. Last ni lah yang kaw skali. Tiga-tiga tanya soalan dahsyat-dahsyat belaka. Teramat lah paling dahsyat sekali di dunia yang fana ni. Soalannya bukan satu tapi banyak. Gulp. Tanya kacang-kacang sudah la. Toksah ler payah benor. Jenuh fikir jawapan. Perggghhh… Susah sioooot. Kena hentam habis-habisan. Tachycardia jantung ni nak jawab tahu *sebab tertelan digoxin 4 biji* -_-“

Siot banyak kot masabalah depa bagi. Seb bek tak ada kes lari dari UiTM. Pening kepala kitorang nak buat apa diorang nak.  Haih!

Tapi kan, sebenarnya kitorang sangat-sangat bersyukur *skema sekejap* sebab diorang buat semua benda ni. Sebabnya:

1) Kitorang dah tahu buat referencing guna APA system tanpa rasa pelik dan muka macam monyet tertelan lalat. Kitorang tahu APA system tak ada banyak jenis. Satu jenis je. Pandai buat APA system guna Microsoft Word tu (untuk Microsoft 2007 dan ke atas sahaja) pulak tuh. Senang keje den. Toksah salin web berjela.

2) Kitorang tahu nak jawab apa kalau kitorang kena hentam soalan dahsyat dan tak tahu jawab soalan tu. Jawab macam ni “Oh. Yang itu diluar pengetahuan saya. Biar saya cari dulu jawapannya. Awak ingatkan saya ya pasal soalan tadi tu” (dengan muka mesra macam receptionist). Bukan buat muka macam Ah Long dan hentam orang tu balik ok. Kita kan nak tuntut ilmu :)

3) Kalau datang lambat, dengan polite-nya kita mintak maaf cepat-cepat. So that, lecturer tak buat perangai aku-tak-nak-pandang-muka-korang kat kitorang lagi.

4) Kitorang pandai buat hyperlink!! Yey-yey! Dengan jayanya *riak sekejap* Tak ada dah hyperlink degil tak nak keluar. Bukan setakat hyperlink, design-design dahsyat pun dah pandai dah. Hasil godek-godek Microsoft Powerpoint masa belajar nak buat hyperlink dulu. Ngeee.

5) Kitorang dah pandai pilih content yang penting-penting saja nak buat slide. Apa-apa kena pilih yang ada kaitan dengan lab SAHAJA. What comes first must come first. Aceh! :D Yang lain tu kena tambah as additional knowledge je kalau dah gatal nak letak jugak.

6) Kitorang tak pernah lupa *jap – kadang2 tu lupa jugak kot eheh* nak garis nama spesis dah! :D

7) Kitorang tak bengang bila ada soalan banyak-banyak dari audience after presentation *bengang sikit je kot kalau lebih dari dua soalan ngeee*. Sebab kitorang pernah kena lagi dahsyat dari Encik A, Encik B dan Encik C :)

Diorang ni kan, daripada diorang bujang, dah bertunang, dah kahwin dapat bini cun-cun, dapat anak comel-comel dah. Semuanya depan mata kitorang. Sekarang dalam proses tambah anak je. Eheh. Kot la kan nak tambah *memandai je aku ni :D Dulu memang kitorang bengang la jugak di suruh buat benda ‘pelik-pelik’. Tapi sekarang kitorang dah tahu dah mana baiknya. TRIMASEH CIKGU! *jeritan batin budak-budak gang TRES MIGNON*


Sudah. Itu sahaja :)

P/s: NO offence ok ;) Kalau pandai teka lah siapa Encik A, Encik B dan Encik C ;p And *nak glamorize gang TRES MIGNO kejap :)* TRES MIGNON are:

Cik Ngantuk-all-the-time aka Poo-poo-ra

Cik Laptop aka Aiween

Cik Mek Bunga Rama-Rama aka Nadilot

Cik Kura-Kura aka Asy-syida

Cik Taring aka Dila Saya-nak-hadiah

Cik Nyanyi Kebaaboom aka Jane

Cik Gigi Besi aka Hanisoh

Cik ShineE aka Myzaria

Cik Gitar Hitam aka Caja

Cik Pinggan aka Syapika

Cik Choki-Choki aka Nanana-ana

Yeah! Tu dia! :D

Sorry no 1. Yeah. As you can see it. It's not normal.

Sorry no 2 for the sengetsss picture. Blogspot did that. Not me. Seriously -_-

Wait. Gambar cilok dari FB Ana Shasha :) Trimaseh sbb bagi gamba ni. 

*ana mesti pelik statement nih heeee ;p*

Saya gian nak main gitar saya yang bernama Mr. Black Coffee. Saya tinggal dia sorang-sorang kat rumah di Puncak Alam. Saya GIAN! T.T

'Stringly' want it.

Having a guitar. Near-to-explode kind of feeling and eagerness ever since I figure out that one of my classmates, I mean a female classmate, named Didi has a guitar. The feeling of near-to-explode become much more to nuclear-explosion-kebaboom! since I went to her house yesterday and watch her plucked her guitar. And sang some songs. Blissfully.

Sebelum ni memendam rasa saja. And now, saya sedang browse for a used acoustic guitar. :)

Ya Allah, tetapkanlah pendirianku ini.

Picture source: Weather Underground.

Katil saya.

OK. I'm back to school. My first week is just like erratic. My nerve's falling apart. Haih! I do not stay in the hostel anymore. My friend and I rent a spacious house (yela, nak sumbat 9 orang la katakan.) in Puncak Alam 2. We are the first renter of the house. I mean nobody have ever stay in the house before we occupy it. Not even the owner of the house. And we rent the house without having single furniture.


So, we have to buy everything. Everything. Cabinet in the kitchen, study desk, cupboard, bed, bla, bla, bla. Everything are perfect, for me. Except for my bed. Hehehe. We bought a double-decker bed. Queen size below and single size top. I take top. Dan yang atas tu tak ada penghadang tepi! OH MY GOODNESS! I afraid that I might fall and penyek Jannah, Nisa dan Myza (The three shawty musketeers). You know, I've never know how do I look or move while I sleep (I bet I need someone to videotape me while i asleep). Lasak ke, sopan ke kan. Hmm. Redha saja lah.


My first night with the bed - Creepy. I can't sleep tight. I took few hours to fall asleep after I lay on the mattress. Bak kata T.I dan Justin Timberlake:

I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side

I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight

So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride

Haih! Redha-redha.


Second night with the brand new (to our house) secondhand bed - Yes! Boleh tidur! :D


Third night onwards - So far, boleh la. No incident of penyek-ing happen yet. Yet. I hope for a never here.


Itu sahaja. Terima kasih.

Result. Result. Result.

Today. December 10th, 2010. Student UiTM dapat tgk result peperiksaan. Mine? Wow! Incredibly freak. Haha! Dan yang paling tak disangka will be saya dihujani 'tahniah' dalam facebook. Then, stalk page kawan kelas yang lain (and boom!), sama juga. Tahniah sana sini. Ok, but weirdo! Bukan tak suka, bukan tak hargai, cuma pelik. Whatever it is, never mind. Tahniah juga! :D

Saya tahu kenapa. Sebab most of us did s**k in our last final exam (including me..heheh :)) and for sure most of us feel very grateful that most of us survive the papers that most of us wouldn't expected to pass with flying crayon. Haha! Alhamdulillah shall be the perfect word for this situation. 

Relief to memang la relief tapi I know that my parent would hate the numbers. Tu lah. Main-main lagi. Padan muka Syaza. Whatever it is, it happened. Tak boleh ubah dah pun. So, the best phrase for this moment is hari semalam hanya sejarah dan hari esok tak pasti bertamu. Apa yang pasti cuma hari ini. Jadi, kerjakan hari ini dengan sekuat semangat supaya hari semalam akan jadi lebih baik dan hari esok tak mungkin jadi lebih teruk sebab kita sendiri tahu sebanyak mana kerja kita. :)

Pada kawan-kawan saya yang kecewa tu, it is okay. Doakan umur kamu panjang. So that kamu dapat kerjakan apa yang kamu mahu. Sabar ye. Saya tahu azam kita sama. We will make it better. :)

The Unwanted Favourite.

Bulimia Nervosa. Is an eating disorder. Di mana seseorang makan dengan banyak kerana keinginan, kemudian the person is feeling guilty and ashamed and shall then purge all the eaten foods out of the body unnaturally (laxatives, vommiting, diuretics, vigorous exercise etc).

I used to think of doing it. That's why I don't mock people who did this. However, I will never approve such deed.


I often think of doing it. And you know why? Because, hell yes, I love to eat. Really, really love to eat. And I tend to binge (Ooopsy! Eheh). It was OK when I was in my secondary school because my metabolism at that time is very loyal to me. You know, I can maintain my 50 kgs even though I eat up to 5 plate of rice for each meal (Gila kan?Kesian usus saya. Hmm). But then I realize, when I am getting 'younger', the condition is not the same anymore. I easily gain my weight if I eat out of control. And then, mulalah my body starting to be out of shape. I let people judge me and then I take the judgement seriously in a far from the positive way (Haih! -_-'). Muntahkan makanan yg saya cintai.

Saya rasa saya bertuah kerana saya berfikir sebelum saya ber-'bulimia' (Alhamdulillah! Thanks Allah for the most amazing thing ever invented - the brain :) ). You know, bulimia banyak negatif dari positifnya. OK, let's see.
1. Saya pernah terbaca ('ter' la kan, kat mana tah) bulimia tak akan turunkan berat badan. Just maintain your body weight. Lagi tak best berat badan jadi cam roller coaster pun ada. Turun naik turun naik. Susah hati tahu.

2. Bulimia akan hanya buat badan kita kekurangan air. Then, dapat la pulak bibir merekah dan kulit kering di mana sume ni sangat lah tak cantik bagi perempuan. Kan lagi teruk tu. Kalau minum/makan dan buang kan sia-sia namanya.

3. Badan kita akan buat aktiviti tu macam habit like kita oozing gaster juice after makan. Macam ni, kalau kita selalu vomit dengan sengaja after lunch, lama-lama badan kita akan treat aktiviti tu sebagai rutin. So, kalaupun kita tak nak muntahkan makanan tu selepas kita makan lunch, we will still muntahkan. Maknanya, anda dah sakit. Tahniah! ^^

4. Gastrointestinal tract kita juga menderita. Sebab - kena paksa. Kesian. Esophogus will be inflamed. Altered bowel  habit etc. Kesian badan kita. Hmm. And again, anda sakit. Tahniah! ^^

5. Banyak org miskin yang tak diberi rezeki oleh Allah untuk makan. Tapi Allah bagi kita rezeki tu. Bertuah kan kita? Tapi kita buang pula. Dari bertuah jadi kawan syaitan pula. Magic! Ada orang pula lumpuh. Tak dapat makan apa yang dia orang nak. Ada orang lain ada penyakit. Mesti pantang, kata doktor. Kita yang sihat pula nak jadi tak sihat. Apa daaa..

Saya tahu ini susah bagi sesetengah orang. Tapi please. Excuses are totally sick. Find something else that quench your need to be loved. Kalau dicari pasti dapat. Dulu, saya rasa diet tu susah (even now..). Exercise pun. But now, I love to jog (walaupun kadang2 sangat malas..heheh). Saya suka bila saya lari-lari. Tak ada apa yang saya dengar selain degupan jantung saya. Seronok tahu! Berenang pun macam tu. Best! Tak ada apa yang saya dengar selain degupan jantung saya. Tak ada bunyi suara orang lain dari bunyi jantung saya. Kedengaran silly kan? Tapi saya suka. ^^ Inspiring sungguh jantungku ini!

Lagi. Ahaa! Saya pergi internship di Hospital Muar. Ada doktor perempuan di department saya cakap berat saya dah cun. Dia kata saya risau tak bertempat. Dia kata, "You are fine actually. Build up some muscle is enough. Bukan sampai berketul-ketul tahu. Jangan bagi badan nampak lembik jer cukup". Wah! Terima kasih Doktor! :D

Lagi. Kawan saya. Saya suka dia. Dia suka dengan apa yang dia ada walaupun dia 'cute'. Dia bersyukur untuk semuanya. Dia kata, "I love when you smile because you have a nice smile. And when you're not worry and then you will smile. So, jangan risau sangat lah. Kita tak dicipta untuk orang yang tak puas hati dengan kita. Kita diciptakan untuk Allah. Kan?". Wah lagi! Terima kasih Kawan! :D

So, moral of the repekan is channel your needs in a way that will not harm yourself. Hargailah diri kamu. Ambil teguran secara positif.

Take me, or leave me...

Human are made to be flexible. Kita menyesuaikan diri. Kita memaafkan. Kita semuanya. Kita suka, kemudian kita menjauhi. Ini kerana kita punya akal (mesti lah! ngeee). Ada tepat dan ada yang tak tepat bagi kita.

Hmm. People around me do have the right to change. I know. Tapi ada sesetengah yang merisaukan. It is not the way they change, but to what they have changed into. Sangat merisaukan bila mereka berubah and obviously look me as a person that have turn into a worst state. Physically, or mentally.

Maybe salah diri sendiri. Kalau macam tu, maafkan. Dan tolong saya betulkan dengan cara yang saya dapat saya terima dan tak mustahil untuk saya betulkan. But please, if something that i can't help with is the thing that you have had problem with and you can't really tolerate with it, i advice you to leave me. Yes. Leave me. I shall not blame you. I understand. I will not say that you ditch me. Because I understand. I understand that it is impossible to content people. So, leave me. And let me breath with the wind without your unsatisfactory in it. Saya tahu saya kedengaran selfish, but what to do. I am suffocated enough. 

Jangan salah tafsir perkataan2 saya. Tulisan saya bukan menandakan saya benci. Hanya 'sedompok' (bak kata adik. ^^) rasa hati.

Saya hargai kepada yang sabar. Dan juga yang faham. Dan juga yang mengingatkan. Dan juga yang mendengar. Saya ingat semuanya. Terima Kasih. :)

p/s: saya sayang kamu juga. ^^

01.02 am.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010.

Syaza.

I am convo-ing..

today is my day..its my convocation day..i finished my diploma for god's sake!!  :D

Saya tak tahu apa yang saya rasa. Tak tahu nak kata apa juga. But deep in my heart i am very grateful. Yeah! Grateful. That's the only perfect word. Those time make a different me, obviously. 


Saya benci, marah, suka, berawang-awangan, semuanya lah! :D Kemudian, saya belajar. Saya belajar untuk susah. Saya belajar untuk kawal marah. Saya belajar untuk diam. Saya belajar semuanya. Dan semuanya kerana adanya semua orang. Saya bersyukur dengan adanya Kamu. :)  Terima Kasih Daun Keladi!! ^^


Ahead from this day, saya akan work my ass off. Because i want to be a reasonable, be grateful, modest person yet shall roar to the person that doesn't have faith in me. Uhm!! 


"Aman, tidak kepada peperangan"